Today I dont know how and why but I found myself longing the whole day for when I can blog.My emotions are high and complicated . Bear with me!Thx!
This morning, the new prefect results are out.Take a look at the prefect notice board.Aldric, Stefanus, Edward, Nikodemus, Julian,Kelvin,Rowland... Congratulations!But what about me?
If I say that I feel nothing,none at all,it is an outright lie.A little bit disappointment, sadness . Usually,I will just keep it to myself and stand it.But now , there are some people around me that I can totally trust and share with.They are the reasons that I m still holding on.Thanks for be there and listen to me.You are really something in my life.
Brother Mike seems very excited about Jonathan Leong,one of this year Singapore Idol contestants, ex Josephian (obviously,hihi..).So let 's pray for him.Talking 'bout idol,I want to share something.In my life,I have found a lot of idols but they immediately vanish as soon as I get to know them.It is true,the instant you know the real them,they will be your idol no more,I mean full of flaws and....But I still have 3 idols in SJI at the moment(Don't know how long until they are my idols no more)2 from Sec 4 and 1 from sec 3.All are prefects (What a.....)They are mainly the reasons why I want to be a prefect and also not to be one.If I can be,I feel like I m getting closer to them.But in fact,they show me how incompetent I am.The way they talk and act,they try to comprehend someone incomprehensible like me,they assure the insecured that everything is ok,they make the intimidated feel like nothing has happened,the way they treat everyone around them.....So admirable.I think that no one can guess who they are because if I actually tell you,you wont believe it,you cant believe it.
Let s see ,prefects, idols...last but not least,study.Only one word to describe : Bad.I dont get a fraction of what I want.They can say that I am so perfectionistic but I dont blame myself for that.It is just human nature and I am a human being.I just try my best to get what I want.What s wrong with that?Someone in my class is being teased as a mugger.Actually not one but a few ,I feel quite unhappy.Tell me someone who has never mugged and studied and still can get good results.None right?Dont try to tease and bully other people just to ease the insecured part in you.Face the reality!!
I think I get carry on so much but I feel really relieved now.Thx for "listening" to me.Just in case I havent said,I really thank god for having everyone in this world.I am afraid that I might not have a chance to say that so before it is too late ... I learn it from my Chemistry teacher. School is not so boring these days,if you really listen to what the teacher says.Like Mrs Ellen,she said that somebody has once asked her why she is always happy,she replied that she chooses to be happy.She tried to adapt to the environment,not asking the environment to adapt to her.A precious lesson!!So I will carry it out.No more complainings.Live my life to the fullest 'coz' I only have one time to live.
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(In a moment of emotion)